I recently was at work and I ran into somebody I never thought I would. The interaction was very normal, I should have left it at that. Instead I tried to reach out yesterday, no surprise nothing happened. Today I learned what empty longing means, I really need to shake it. Especially when it was never something. How is it that I miss the memory of someone who was never mine to call? I guess I am one of those girls ugh. No worries, I am not ashamed of my feelings or actions. However I understand this is only hurting the both of us. He clearly is not interested and I am clearly not taking the hint. I blew my window of opportunity a while back as much as I hate to admit it. I am currently ignoring men who actually are interested in me. I had a gentleman actually ask me why I was ignoring him. I even had a gentleman ask me out twice at school. He asked me if I was married and I said yes, he was a much older man and I figured that would lay it to rest. As a lady I should not be disclosing any of this but it hurts. I can't stop thinking about the what if and how he blatantly ignores and I push others away for an unrequited love. However this is not a tale of woes, I will not lock myself away at home like Twilight's Bella( sorry). On the contrary I am using this to strengthen myself and share my exuberance with the world as well as polish my leadership skills.
I am still working out and I am enjoying the results. I still have long ways to go, especially with the fact that I cannot control my mouth. I still find myself binge eating at night or throughout the day. Really what's the point of daily exercise if I am not changing my eating habits? I need to work on me, an important project.
My leadership skills were put to the test this past week, and I dare say I handled it better than I assumed I would. I managed to take care of everything. My leadership and confidence is also improving at work. People seek my guidance and support. I gave a presentation on leadership and I will proudly state that I went all motivational speaker on them,
As for my career, I hope to one day move to Glendale or Burbank to work with Marvel Studios as the Director of TV and publicity or the Coordinator of Marketing. However I need to focus on climbing up my ladder at work. I need to become fulltime and climb my way up to trainer, lead and someday manager. After that I can focus on moving to Marvel. I understand it will take time, but it will allow me to gain knowledge and practice my skills.
I managed to buy a mask for my costume this week. I got a perfect score on my circuit training class test!
On a sadder note, I did not get the internship I wanted. I applied at OCTA and was politely declined. There is an opening for an office assistant that I am interested in. I plan on applying for it soon.
Aujourd'hui dans la classe de francais, je etudie ma dictee. Je passer un test demain.
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Until next time
Have Fury
Thrills with FlyFritz
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