Life

I was under the false impression that family was supposed to be there for you always- be it in harmony or in time of need. Looks like I grew up huh? Now my family spends their time in their own respective way. As in we don't spend any with each other. Holidays are like any other day. So are birthdays. My sister cries because she misses the warmth and merriment. I try not to, but it seems as if my heart is filled with an uncontrollable rage and disbelief. How could they? Who do they think they are? I loathe my father's friend. It was 6 years ago on my fifteenth birthday. I am Mexican American, instead of sweet 16, we celebrate our quinceañera. During my presentation he had the audacity to say the most beautiful girl in the room was my cousin. It's not like I can forget it, it's on tape. We don't speak, but my father's oldest brother calls, they mock us. They say they don't worry about anything because their pretty daughter's boyfriend has a well off family. We probably don't have boyfriends. If only they knew... I don't need a man and have denied suitors because unlike her, I don't go off with the first one to ask. Even if they have money. Yes what they don't know is that she regrets some of her boyfriends, but she accepted because she needed to have one and they were the only ones available. But that's none of my business, so I don't say anything. I also don't feel the need to comment on them. I feel pity for their small mindedness. I wish no ill will. I am too focused on my future to worry myself with such trivalries. Matter of fact my so called favorite godparents did the same. They betrayed my loyalty and for that, they ate dead to me. I don't take such matters lightly. In fact the last time we spoke, I handled it with such professionalism, I was shocked. You see I am not rude, why if they mean nothing? They are silly simple minded folk. He is reaching out for monetary aid, but why I thought he boasted on his wealth. He pitied our poverty but said we didn't need or deserve it. Like he said, my family and I are busting our backs to make it. He should get his kids to do so as well. Of course my family is far from well off, but we have food on our table and a roof over our head. Thank the Lord for blessing us with jobs. As for my love life I trust he will guide me in the right direction. Sorry for being so deep...until next time Thrills with FlyFritz